[personal] Not out of the woods yet

Nothing improved this morning. About to head for the airport, my “home” ER this afternoon. The Fear is much at issue, to the point where I’m starting to get angry at it. is magnificent.

4 thoughts on “[personal] Not out of the woods yet

  1. When fear sneaks up on me and I don’t want it, I’m geeky enough to remember this from Dune:
    I must not fear.
    Fear is the mind-killer.
    Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration.
    I will face my fear.
    I will permit it to pass over me and through me.
    And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path.
    Where the fear has gone there will be nothing.
    Only I will remain.

    And I anm thankful for Frank Herbert.

    🙂

  2. MrJodie says:

    Brenda, you’re not the only one that brings that quote to mind. I remember it as “little-devil” instead of “little-death.” Thanks for the correction.

    Jay, breathe life into your hope that your “home” doctors will have more answers. Hope isn’t there to delude you, it’s there to motivate you into believing that what you’re going through will pass.

    My wife and I talked about you, last night. We’ve asked our friends (two of which are professional healers) do “do their thing” and send good thoughts and energies your way. It’s the only thing we can offer, but we do offer it gladly.

    I wish you love and light, dear one.

  3. That fear turning to anger thing is one of those steps in the terrorist’s plans (seriously). Don’t give in to the anger, that let’s the terrorists win (humorously).

    It’s never good to be fearful for internal things, even when they’re physical internal things. And both Fear and Anger aren’t good for healing (he said, waving his new-age medicine-stick in the air). You pay doctors to worry for you. Let them carry the fear as well.

  4. joe says:

    Jay,

    Try to remember that fear is a liar. It whispers all manner of nasty things into your inner ear–none of them true. None of them even likely.

    For whatever reason, it’s much easier for emotion to influence intellect, than it is for intellect to inform emotion. Guess that fight or flight wiring runs pretty deep…

    Hang in there, bub. You’re strong, and the docs will have you feeling good again soon.

    Keeping you in our thoughts and prayers.

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