[Cancer]
[cancer] The waiting game
Had a session with my therapist yesterday. I’ll be seeing quite a bit of him for a while. Also had the Cancer Talk, Year Two with
Had an outbreak of the Fear yesterday morning driving back from the gym. That was a little rough. Near-hysterics do not mix well with traveling 40 mph on a narrow road with no place to pull off. But the top was down and REM’s “Drive” was on the CD player, so, well, there I was. I’m also having no trouble already seeing the gifts even this year’s cancer is giving me, but that sliver of wisdom is being offset by my general anger at the whole thing.
Callbacks are now late from both my cancer doctor’s scheduler and the cancer case management people at my health insurance carrier. I’ll launch followup calls today.
More when it happens.
Posted: 4:28 am Thu May 28 2009 |
Where am I?
You are reading the blog of Jay Lake, speculative fiction writer and author of hundreds of short stories, many novels, and winner of the John W. Campbell Award.
Learn more here.
Comments
Leave a Reply
« [links] Link salad discovers Thursday under the carpet | [sale] “Skinhorse Goes to Mars” to Escape Pod »
Catherine Shaffer
May 28th, 2009 at 4:52 amHey, Jay, that’s great about the zen meditation. I wanted to recommend some kind of meditation/spiritual practice to you, but every time I tried to put it into text, I sounded like an asshole, so I didn’t. So glad your therapist thought of it. I’ve gotten quite a bit out of yoga, as well. According to the guru that promotes it, hatha yoga was invented to calm the twitches and other discomforts that distract from meditation practice–it sort of flogs the body into submission. I find it makes me really calm. Maybe too calm. Heheh.
Jay
May 28th, 2009 at 5:29 amCalm is good. Too calm, I dunno…
But yes, we’ll see.