[cancer] Another tough night

Massive and deeply unpleasant lower GI issues kept me up over two hours past my usual stupidly early chemo patient bedtime of 8 pm, and sleeping quite poorly. Going to be a rough day today, as that’s two nights of lousy sleep in a row. I may be forced to use Imodium every night, which cannot possibly be good for my digestive health. Tonight I’ll take a Lorazepam, which will be the first time in my life I’ve used a sleeping pill outside of severe medical distress.

Of course, severe medical distress is what continued lack of sleep will place me in, given the chemotherapy.

God, I hate this. Hate hate hate.