[cancer] Chemo dreams

I keep dreaming that I am wrecking my car. Not giant death-defying pileups, just missed corners, bad swerves, sideswipes, fender benders and the like.

This internal meme has two sources, I think. One, I keep using the “car on ice” metaphor when discussing my side effects management. Two, my driving is frankly crap these days. My peripheral attention is poor. I don’t drive at night anymore, I don’t drive during or a few days after chemo even during the days. When I do drive, I have to double and triple check mirrors, lanes etc.

Not sure what it means. Except maybe I should drive less. Sigh.