[cancer] Another decent day, progressing toward the weekend

Shedding day somewhat spilled into Thursday, but not catastrophically so. I had managed to wake up at 4 am and write again (revisions on Endurance), which in fact I did this morning as well. That seems to be a good time for me, as it’s very low distraction and very high focus, at least compared to where my brain goes later in the day.

I was somewhat fatigued through the day. Visitors in the form of , and were wonderful and welcome, but, erm, tiring. After a craving-driven pancake dinner at the Original Hotcake House, I was dropped off on my own for a very early bedtime. This is part is what enabled me to rise at 4 am this morning and indulge the Write Brain’s need to write. I did sleep well except for a couple of urgent lower GI interruptions.

A couple of side effects I’ve been meaning to mention have been in play lately. One is pretty subtle; that my sense of my own body temperature seems to be too variable. I think I’m hot when I’m not, or vice versa. This is most at issue when trying to sleep, as I am not so aware of the problem when up, focusing and moving about in the world. The other is that lately I’ve had a harder and harder time taking my clusters of medications by mouth. Last night I literally choked on one pill, to the point of almost throwing up. I’m not aware of any actual trauma or soreness in my mouth and throat. This almost feels like a psychological reaction. But it’s real, and it’s annoying.

Working today, then some time this afternoon with and . Tomorrow we’re all trooping off to the train station, likely with in tow, to pick up . Hooray! She says I’m the most energetic chemo patient she’s ever seen. I say I’m not getting squat done and everything’s a struggle.

The truth lies in a happy medium, I’m certain. Now, if I could only find a happy medium in the phone book under psychics. Of course, if she were really good, she’d call me first, right?

4 thoughts on “[cancer] Another decent day, progressing toward the weekend

  1. Ellen Eades says:

    You should be getting a Care Package at your p.o. box from me today or tomorrow. Hope you like it 🙂

    Cheers, Ellen

    1. Jay says:

      Thank you. 🙂

  2. Elspeth Kovar says:

    Mentioning this should have occurred to me a very, very long time ago: there are a lot of us out here who are keeping track of how you’re doing and have you in our thoughts.

    Meanwhile a friend from college recently mentioned “Writers reminisce about Dungeons & Dragons” with a comment that one of the people interviewed, Jay Lake, was ill and wished him well. He and the people who replied know nothing about you personally but certainly care.

    No need to spend the energy replying! Just wanted you to know that while the support isn’t direct it’s here.

  3. Cora says:

    My sympathies on the pill swallowing issues. It may be psychological or it may be not.

    I’ve always had a very active vomit reflex and pills and capsules trigger it particularly badly to the point that I have to be very careful about the type and shape of pills I take. Capsules are a no-no, just won’t go or stay down. Luckily I don’t have any conditions requiring constant medication, so it’s not an issue except for the occasional painkiller. Water, preferably not too cold, helps. Dissolving or chewing up the pill helps, too, but is not always advisable.

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