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[cancer] Yesterday sucked
Well, that was the hardest Monday I’ve had yet. The extreme fatigue of the weekend (a whole new order of magnitude of an already existing, severe problem0 translated into a miserable Monday. I wound up taking time off the Day Jobbe despite my best intentions. Spent much of the day sitting or lying down, went to bed quite early armed with Lorazepam. So far I feel ok today, but, wow…
I hope like blazes that the next rounds of infusion don’t follow this pattern. I am giving credence to
I am cancelling all my social plans this week except Thursday’s reading at Powell’s Cedar Hills for Pinion. This means missing
Still, I’m amazed at how bad yesterday was for me. This stuff keeps reaching new lows. If I were a praying man, I’d be on my knees begging for strength in the next go-round.
Meanwhile,
Posted: 4:13 am Tue March 30 2010 |
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Olivia Magdelene
March 30th, 2010 at 4:31 amThank you for sharing your story with the world. I watched a loved one go through this same thing. Although I can’t do anything but send light & love your way, you are in my thoughts. And I am very grateful for the retweet of yours that lead me to your blog.
Respectfully,
Olivia
Jay
March 30th, 2010 at 4:31 amThank you for reading along.
Kessa
March 30th, 2010 at 4:43 amOn the slow path of healing myself, the discussions about how much energy one has for a day have taken on a gamer geek perspective, which adds that warped little twist of humor to the situation.
It works like this: You are allotted a certain number of “action points” …like intelligence, dexterity, etc… and some days you have more action points than others. So, instead of saying “I don’t think I have the energy to crawl out of bed today.” you say “Today I’m down a few action points.”
Silly, maybe, but it seems less limiting somehow.
Here’s me, sending you some extra ‘action points’ for the week, in the form of good thoughts and hope for your recovery.
Kess
Leslie Walker
March 30th, 2010 at 6:41 amJay,
I’m thinking of you and sending good wishes for some energy where you need it and some ease.
Hugs,
Leslie
Jay
March 30th, 2010 at 6:45 amThank you.
Greg
March 30th, 2010 at 7:17 amHi Jay….
I have not been able to check the blog in several days – spent some days in Paris with a friend (first trip for both of us) and had no internet service.
Though I am a long lapsed catholic and your stance on religion is long known here I lit a candle for you under the statue of Joan of Arc at Notre-Dame and was moved by the spiritual quality of the Sacre Coeur in Montmartre and said a silent prayer that included one for your health.
Take Care
Greg
Jay
March 30th, 2010 at 7:18 amThank you. Much appreciated. And I hope you really enjoyed Paris!
Greg
March 31st, 2010 at 2:17 amLoved Paris – want to go back already… wishing you well Jay….
Bob Kruger
March 30th, 2010 at 9:46 amSending you good thoughts from North Bend, Jay. Thanks for the updates!
Best,
Bob