[cancer|food] What I miss the most

This is medically trivial, and the light of my complete absence of nausea and vomiting, probably a blessing in aome sense, but one of the things I miss the most through the chemotherapy process is the simple ability to enjoy my food.

Lately I’ve been having olfactory hallucinations, for want of a better term. Or very strong flashes of memory perhaps. I’ll suddenly taste crispy bacon and eggs over medium. Or kung pao chicken sharp on my tongue. Or enchiladas Suiza, rolling in cheese, white sauce and salsa verde. I know if I sought them out right now, they wouldn’t taste anything like I wish for them to. Too many things burn my mouth (cinnamon, nuts, peppers) and everything else tastes as if it were coated in plastic, if I can taste it at all.

But god I miss food. Such a minor thing to be upset about, in the larger scheme of health and recovery, but there you have it.

Hell, I’d just like buttered toast to taste right.

5 thoughts on “[cancer|food] What I miss the most

  1. Kathryn says:

    No, it is NOT trivial!!!! We have to eat to keep up our strength, to repair our bodies, to share a moment with friends. Even though I can still taste most things, I have no appetite. 700 cookbooks can’t make me want anything to eat. So I exist on applesauce and bananas and ice cream and english muffins. When these things start tasting strange, will I eat anything at all?

    1. Jay says:

      I know, believe me. I’m down to soft white carbs with occasional bouts of protein madness.

  2. Lizzy says:

    I understand and sympathize completely. I’d love to taste something as simple as a steak and kidney pie again… with the kidneys all slippy yet crispy between my teeth, but new health considerations forbid me gluten or wheat. No more pie for me! (And I know every American reading this is going to wince at the thought of kidneys! But maybe not you, Jay.) 🙂

  3. Laurie Mann says:

    When I have gastritis, I’m pretty much limited to cheese sandwiches, chicken breast, mashed potatoes, apple sauce and ice cream. Maybe carrots and yogurt. Hope you find some foods you’re comfortable with.

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