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[cancer] The feet, the future
Yesterday’s travel was interesting. First time I’d been on a plane since visiting calendula_witch in California last December, prior to starting chemo. The air in the aircraft cabin is so cold that my hands were in pain. Otherwise I handled the trip pretty well, though I did get asked several times why I was wearing a hat and gloves in July.
Went for a walk here in Omaha this morning. Managed 40 minutes, or about 2 miles at my current reduced pace. Saw a rabbit and some fireflies, heard the nighthawks peeping, and several other birds I could not identify. By the time I got back to my hotel room, my feet were practically on fire with tingling. The magic of peripheral neuropathy.
I do not expect to be especially productive in writing the next few days. Simply too much going on here, with all-day meetings at Day Jobbe and after-hours events these next three days. I plan to get at least an hour a day in, but we’ll see. Back on the horse this coming Friday. Endurance is on target, as are the bits and pieces of other projects I still have to deal with.
Spent some time talking with my friend the night clerk here this morning. As I said to him (and have said to others recently), I don’t really mind the apparent resurgence of cancer. I think I’ve come to identify myself as a person-with-cancer, and this will be who I am from now on, even in periods of medical quietude. I’m not too torqued about the probability of more surgery. Surgery is a single event from which one recovers, and this will likely be a less disruptive surgery than the last two. But to lose another six or eight months of my life to chemo… Ah, me. Such a hideous and terrible proposition.
I’m doing a pretty good job of staying positive, but sometimes it just rolls over me.
Posted: 5:07 am Tue July 27 2010 |
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Brenda Cooper
July 27th, 2010 at 5:49 amNo shit. Russy’s cancer has become something we are used to and not used to all at once, like a long fucking nightmare. Some days I don’t know how you keep going so long and basically fighting it all the way – you rock for it.
Have a good day.
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Alexis
July 27th, 2010 at 9:19 amHugs!
Sän
July 27th, 2010 at 9:32 amMaybe the next retreat you attend as a guru should take place on the Baja Peninsula or something, so you can run around naked like the rest of us did.
Leon
July 27th, 2010 at 9:56 amStill sending you good thoughts.
Rick York
July 27th, 2010 at 1:58 pmOf all the things I miss about living on the east coast – and there are very few – at the top of the list are fireflies.
Enjoy them while you can.