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[cancer] Life’s only a metaphor anyway
Last night I dreamt my own death. It wasn’t literalized, was in fact highly metaphorical even for dreamspace, but I knew this for what it was. The situation involved top fuel dragsters, some of my co-workers from the Day Jobbe, and the cast from the recent Star Trek reboot, in character. Ultimately there was a botched beheading, and pale white blood.
I have got to get a handle on these emotional reactions to the apparent return of my cancer. (Now! Held over due to popular demand! SRO!) And I will, once we have some direction and a better sense of the treatment plan. But for the moment, the odd thoughts and disturbing dreams and emotional eddies are here.
Liver surgeon in a few hours. Then we’ll know more.
Posted: 5:49 am Wed August 11 2010 |
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Sän
August 11th, 2010 at 6:02 amI give you permission to dream my death instead. With my raw meat & spoiled milk diet and my wild, chewing-on-roadkill lifestyle, it should afford some unlikely yet entertaining scenarios.
Death by flat zombie squirrel, to start with…
Jay
August 11th, 2010 at 6:21 amWatch out, you might get what you ask for.
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Cliff Winnig
August 11th, 2010 at 9:38 amI dreamed my own death by being skewered by Stormbringer once. Sadly, I think it was a metaphor for the relationship I was in at the time.
If you have Star Trek dreams in the future, I hope you st least get to fight a Gorn.
Cora
August 11th, 2010 at 1:57 pmWell, at least your dream involved the cast of Star Trek.
I’ll be keeping my fingers crossed for the liver surgeon appointment.