I hate being crazy in the head from medical stress. This is bad now, even before the cognitive and emotional disruptions of the chemotherapy drugs themselves.
Already I am not being the person I want to be. Already I am not being the person I am. And I’m so very painfully conscious of the staggering cost I paid in my personal life for this disconnect during the last chemo go-round.
I hate this.
Posted: 5:46 am Sat April 30 2011 | Comments(1) |
Worked my usual Day Jobbe schedule yesterday. Spent 2.5 hours editing Kalimpura. Helped ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=1){kind=small}
the_child finish her draft of her school report on Nigeria.
Today, she has a lacrosse game, then she’s singing in the choir at the memorial service for her friend’s mother. I had to think pretty hard about whether I would attend that service myself. I finally reluctantly decided that it would be too difficult for me emotionally. Not an easy decision. Not at all.
Instead I’m going to have lunch with my parents, then pack for my trips to Las Vegas for work (Sunday through Wednesday) and Kauai with the_child (Thursday through Sunday). I’m flexible for dinner in Las Vegas Monday night, while the_child and I are available Thursday and Saturday nights in Kauai, if anyone there is interested in meeting up.
The following week, cancer follies begin in earnest. For now, I am living my life.
Posted: 5:42 am Sat April 30 2011 | Comments(0) |
Your Saturday moment of zen.
tillyjane at Russian Creek, Idaho. © 2007, 2011, Joseph E. Lake, Jr.
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Posted: 5:40 am Sat April 30 2011 | Comments(0) |
The Case for Cursive — Kids today!
Tiny Spacecraft Point to Future Sails — Chip satellites. This is cool stuff from Centauri Dreams.
“Those Are Characteristics Of A Tyrant…” — Coates on Balko on Trump. Obviously the Donald’s political appeal does not lie in his measured statesmanship, but shouldn’t there be limits?
GOP Strategists Fear Fallout From Obama Birth Record — These Republicans were nearly unanimous in their desire to see the issue permanently put to rest because they fear it could make the party seem too extreme. “Seem” extreme? The party of Bachmann, DeMint, Palin and Bush? Hello? That’s fricking hilarious. It walks a like a duck, it quacks like a duck…
The president is Citizen Obama. Get over it. — Eugene Robinson on birtherism and facts. I’m not talking about competing worldviews, I’m talking about a lack of agreement on what is provably, objectively true and what is not. Political polarization is old hat. Empirical polarization — a rejection of this nation’s founding Enlightenment principles — is something new. This isn’t exactly news. Remember President Bush and the “true facts”? For that matter, anybody who believes in Creationism makes the same fundamental errors of thought. The Right is nothing if not consistent in its idiocies.
?otD: Revision or rewrites?
Posted: 5:37 am Sat April 30 2011 | Comments(0) |
Yesterday I went over to Sea Tramp Tattoo here in SE Portland and marked my cancer experience permanently on my body in symbols of my own choosing. This is to contrast with the surgical traces across my abdomen and chest. kenscholes came with, as did mlerules. Being who we are, we brought cameras.
Posted: 5:18 am Fri April 29 2011 | Comments(13) |
Your Friday moment of zen.
Tree at Russian Creek, Idaho. © 2007, 2011, Joseph E. Lake, Jr.
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Posted: 5:12 am Fri April 29 2011 | Comments(0) |
A reader reacts to Green — Among other reviews. I’m not sure if they liked it or not.
Guest Blog: Lauren Beukes on Writing the Other — Good for her. I sure hope Lauren fares well with making this point, as talking about this is decidedly playing with fire.
At and Around the Con: A Guide for Horrifying Baboons — nihilistic_kid is wise.
Savoring — Ta-Nehisi Coates on reading.
Problem Competition: Who is Worse Off? — Amy Sundberg with more on problems.
Flashback post: “What’s the score?” — Slacktivist Fred Clark with a (re)post on Terry Schiavo and “red facts” vs “blue facts”, still very much germane to the current political and media discourse.
Guns at home more likely to be used stupidly than in self-defense — Also, this just in, water is wet. Yes, Sparky, your theoretical defense of essential liberties is still more important than the 14,000 or so gun deaths per year. In four decades of gun ownership over half a million people will be killed so you can sleep more soundly at night! The Constitution says so.
After-birthers running through the fever swamps — And that belief lies in their fundamental, bedrock definition of what constitutes a Real American — a white, Christian conservative. There’s no way they will ever be able to reconcile the idea that a black Democrat could legitimately represent a majority the American people. Clearly, they will rewrite history and the constitution if they have to in order to make that case.
Birth Certificate just Jim Crow all Over Again — The strong link between birtherism and the Jim Crow states. No racism here, nope, nosirree Bob. I’m pretty sure that birtherism would also map well to evolution denialism, which just reinforces my long-held point about how legitimizing magical thinking just leads to more magical thinking. Gosh, realworld consequences to conservative delusions?
?otD: What’s your sign?
Posted: 5:11 am Fri April 29 2011 | Comments(4) |
Yesterday I met with my surgical oncologist. Read the rest of this entry »
Posted: 5:19 am Thu April 28 2011 | Comments(7) |
Yesterday I resumed work on Kalimpura. This is the close read and primary revision pass through the book. Once I have this run done, I’ll send it out to readers. I need to have into Tor by June, but that’s only two chemo sessions forward. I’ll be able to hang on to my skills for this effort.
It’s nice to be back with Green and her world a while. It’s nice to write.
Posted: 5:16 am Thu April 28 2011 | Comments(0) |
Your Thursday moment of zen.
Russian Creek, Idaho. © 2007, 2011, Joseph E. Lake, Jr.
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Posted: 5:15 am Thu April 28 2011 | Comments(0) |