It’s Monday morning here at scenic NIH. I haven’t eaten anything since Friday afternoon but two soda crackers, of which I thrwe up. My dreams have been filled with strange chowder, including the realization that I own a Black Knight pinball machine. In point of fact, I do not, though I’ve long coveted them. They’re spendy to buy and spendy to maintain and where would I put one anyway?
They started me Friday afternoon on Cyclophosphamide as my first stage chemo agent. My mind and body both went to tell. Since then the longest stretch of sleep I’ve had is about three hours, and my total across three nights is ridiculously low. Plus all the usual stuff like diarrhea and vomiting. Uncontrollable in my case, which is unusual. Plus some unusual (for me at least) stuff like all 32 of my teeth aching at once, and my face browning hot to the touch.
I’ve run a series of low grade fevers. The chest port they put it keeps clogging. One of my nurses believes the lines are twisted inside of mu chest. Some of the vomiting was so severe that afterwards my forearms ached for an hour so, something I’ve never experienced. Dad,
I have been magnificently miserable.
Things are a bit better today. The chemo I’m on until Friday, the name of which escapes my right now, is much more narrowly targeted and shouldn’t leave me feeling so oppressed. I need to lose the Cyclophosphamide-induced gag reflex before I resume eating, but hopefully that will be today.
When I start the IL-2 on Friday or Saturday in order to supplement the TIL cell infusion, I’ve been told to expect a weight gain of 20-30 pounds in less than a handful of days. It can do weird things to your metabolism. I’m also told I’ll lose that weight before they discharge me, presumably by pissing it away, but wow… That also puts me in mind of ascites, which I expect to be a feature of my terminal decline.
Meanwhile, I suffer for science. Please excuse any weird mistakes in this blog post, my brain is not fully back on line yet.