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Reading Notes: “The Stars Do Not Lie” — A mixed review of my Hugo- and Nebula-nominated novella.

2013 stories 151 – 159 — A review of, among other things, my short story “The Future by Degrees”, all from Seeds of Change.

The Lovely Mr. Gaiman — A despatch from Friday night’s Clarion West party.

JayWake Registration OpensFile 770 covers the forthcoming terminal festivities.

I Just Can’t Process My Own Death — Ferrett Steinmetz with some serious thinking about mortality.

The Atlantic In Paris–Dispatch #1 — Ta-Nehisi Coats with an admirable meditation on privilege, luck and going to Paris with his family.

Epic Superhero Art in a Traditional Native American Style — (Thanks to [info]corwynofamber.)

Putnam County Sheriff’s Office: 3 men towed, rode 600-lb. aluminum chickenThree men were arrested Wednesday in Putnam County for stealing a 9-foot-tall chicken statue. (Via [info]danjite.)

Zoologger: Hipster toad has weaponised moustache — Because headlines! (Via [info]threeoutside.)

Agriculture arose in many parts of the Fertile Crescent at once

Improving 3-D Printing by Copying NatureBiomimicry could make the technology safer and better.

First look: Google Glass unboxing, setup, and first impressions — I would love to work with Google Glass, but even if I somehow got hold of it, unless they can be configured with prescription lenses, they’re useless to me. I can’t wear contacts, and I can’t go without vision correction.

Astronomers remain puzzled by mysterious intergalactic radio bursts

Climate Scientist Michael Mann Sums Up the Witch Hunt Against HimBut the “enraging” part is still there—that duly-elected public officials would waste so much time, effort, and tax dollars on witch hunts like these is galling, amplified even more so by the import and stakes involved. If this were a real controversy I would enthusiastically support investigations; but the evidence is in, and it’s clear these attacks are without merit and just politically driven. The GOP battlecry: “Millions for pointless political witch hunts to keep our white, male voters angry; not one cent for social services that might benefit likely Democratic voters!”

New Living Word removed from Louisiana Scholarship Program — Huh. Conservative Christians cheating the government on a wholesale basis. Guess those Commandments about theft and false witness don’t apply when there’s public money to be pocketed. It is obvious from their behavior and rhetoric that to many American Christians the Ten Commandments are not nearly so important as God’s inviolate word on homosexuality, for example. No wonder people think us atheists can’t have a moral compass. Not when we lack this kind of moral leadership.

Sound Familiar?Can we think of some Americans who view secular, rational thinking as contrary to God’s Will? Who seem to be in an extended revolt against modernity? Who have a fixed, rigid notion of how society ought to operate, rooted deeply in an imagined Golden Age? Who want to utilize democratic processes to impose a system that brooks no compromise or “relativistic” adjustments to changing circumstances, but instead reflects an order dictated by natural and divine law, and the nation’s “true” character?

Gay Marriage Stirs Rebellion at Synagogue — Sadly, there are religious bigots everywhere. History is leaving them all behind.

Restrictive law could force most Texas abortion clinics to close — Ask any Republican about Obamacare, and they’ll tell you, “Don’t let the government come between me and my doctor.” I’m so glad to see the Texas GOP is upholding this core conservative value.

For Islamists, Dire Lessons on Politics and Power

Venezuela’s Maduro: Unlike US Asylees, Snowden didn’t Blow anything Up, just said ‘This is not Right’

How the Pentagon Papers Came to Be Published by the Beacon Press, Told by Daniel Ellsberg and Others — Oh, how times have changed. (Via David Goldman.)

A Bad Dream — Charlie Stross on the politics of democracy in the contemporary UK. Fascinating.

QotD?: What have you overheard in Mayfair lately?


7/7/2013
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (vacation)
Hours slept: 9.5 hours (solid)
Body movement: 0.0 hours (away from home)
Weight: n/a (away from home)
Number of FEMA troops on my block building mandatory gay marriage halls: 0
Currently reading: Real Happiness: The Power of Meditation: A 28-Day Program by Sharon Salzberg; Snuff by Terry Pratchett

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[cancer|repost] JayWake, in which I host my own funeral

Small Clockwork Departure You are invited to my pre-mortem wake and roast, a somewhat morbid, deeply irreverent, but joyous celebration of me. This is a time for celebrating my life, loves, and dark, twisted sense of humor. Bring your stories (hysterical, at my expense), your tasteless jokes, and any and all expressions gleefully macabre. Come party with the man who has never passed up the chance to poke cancer in the eye and laugh about it.

Date/Time:
Saturday, July 27, 6:PM – ?

Location:
Holiday Inn Portland Airport
8439 NE Columbia Blvd
Portland, OR 97220

We are deeply grateful to the Cascade Writers’ Conference who is gifting us with the cancellation of their Saturday evening programming so that their members can attend JayWake. In addition, they have offered the unused space for our celebration. We are humbled by their generosity.

We are arranging for a group rate for out-of-town guests at the Holiday Inn. Please email tammyjoy6@gmail.com for information on the hotel.

Food and Libations:
There will be a buffet dinner for guests who RSVP. RSVP-ing tells us how many people to prepare for. Please email jaywakereg@gmail.com or reply to the Facebook event to RSVP. Donations will be accepted (but not required) to offset the cost of the meal.

Roast:
The Roast will begin at about 7:30. Be warned: the jokes and stories contained herein will not only push the boundaries of good taste, they will leapfrog over the boundaries blowing a raspberry. This is not a time to say how I touched your life. This is a time to say how I touched you inappropriately. Please contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com for information on being a scheduled speaker.

Sandra Tayler and the JayWake Book
The mighty @sandratayler is working on the Jay Wake Book. She’s looking for pictures, stories and other material about me. As Sandra says:

Our friend Jay has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and is hosting his own wake, Jay Wake, which Howard and I are attending. We know that other friends of Jay would love to be able to come, but can’t for a multitude of reasons. The Jay Wake Book is a project to let everyone participate in the celebration of Jay. I’ll be collecting stories, art, and photos of Jay to compile into the book. The first iteration of this book will be presented to Jay at Jay Wake. The second iteration will include stories and photos collected at Jay Wake. It will be made generally available either in electronic or print version.

Please contribute if you can.

Donations:
We will be accepting donations to offset the cost of the meal and event. Use the PayPal button below, or contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com if you’d like to donate in another way.

T-Shirts:
T-shirts with a black and white line art version of the art below, by Howard Tayler, will be available. Contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com if you’d like to order one.

Planning to Attend?
If you are planning to attend, please RSVP to jaywakereg@gmail.com or at the Facebook event.

Clockwork Departure
Art © 2013 Howard Tayler. Reproduced with permission.

Questions? Email jaywake.questions@gmail.com.

This post is adapted from the JayWake page here.

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[cancer] Field notes from Cancerland, birthday weekend edition

Interviews

The Oregonian is running another interview with me today, entirely about my cancer experience. This piece by reported Jeff Baker is a followup to a profile they ran last year. It’s interesting to me to read about myself from a distinctly journalistic perspective. The coverage is friendly and sympathetic.

Sandra Tayler and the JayWake Book

The mighty @sandratayler is working on the Jay Wake Book. She’s looking for pictures, stories and other material about me. As Sandra says:

ur friend Jay has been diagnosed with terminal cancer and is hosting his own wake, Jay Wake, which Howard and I are attending. We know that other friends of Jay would love to be able to come, but can’t for a multitude of reasons. The Jay Wake Book is a project to let everyone participate in the celebration of Jay. I’ll be collecting stories, art, and photos of Jay to compile into the book. The first iteration of this book will be presented to Jay at Jay Wake. The second iteration will include stories and photos collected at Jay Wake. It will be made generally available either in electronic or print version.

Please contribute if you can.

Forthcoming Events

‘Tis the season and whatnot. JayFest is this coming Thursday at Powell’s Books Cedar Hills location. That’s a group signing and book fair featuring a dozen Northwest science fiction and fantasy authors. The book fair will run from 6 to 9 pm, with the group signing at 7 to 8 pm. I will be there, with various friends and family in tow.

Then this coming Saturday is JayCon XIII [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ], my big, public birthday party. This will be at the Flying Pie on SE Stark Street in Portland. There is a good chance this is the last JayCon ever with me in attendance, and certainly the last one where I’ll be fully on my game socially and emotionally, so if you’ve ever been tempted, now’s your big chance.

And of course, JayWake is coming up July 27th, because if I can’t enjoy my own damned funeral, who can? There are guests coming in from all over. I’d love for you to be one of them.

Hand-Foot Syndrome

In the department of less fun things, my hand-foot syndrome is rapidly becoming even more annoying. This is of course a side effect of the Regorafenib I am currently taking in an attempt to slow my tumor growth. My feet ache and sting progressively more as the day goes by. Eventually I reach the point where I can walk only with substantial pain. At first they would ease up overnight as I slept, but these past two mornings, I’ve woken up still in pain. My hands are having equivalent problems. This makes many simple tasks and household chores rather difficult. Not to mention the whole business is distracting. We see one of the oncologists tomorrow to talk about the side effects and their management. I’ll also be having bloodwork done, as this medicine is a liver antagonist, and the liver is of course the part of my body which is under the heaviest assault from my cancer.

The To-Do List

Remember my enormous to-do list [ jlake.com | LiveJournal ]? I continue to work my way through it. I’ll post a more detailed update in the next week or so, but suffice to say that this week forthcoming I have in addition to my oncology appointment also meetings with an attorney, an accountant and a financial planner. Plenty going on. I need to do it now, because the illness will likely slow me down soon enough.

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[conventions|repost] Announcing JayCon XIII

ETA: We will be having my living wake, the JayWake on Saturday, July 27th. This will be a celebration of my life and a giant flip of the bird to my death. Including both a wake and a roast.

Every year, some people tell me that I need to announce JayCon early so they can get it in on their calendars. Every year, some people tell me I need to announce JayCon later, because they don’t plan that far ahead. Sometimes, these are the same people. So starting now, and going on through the spring, I will be reposting this announcement with occasional edits or updates as needed.

In celebration of my natal anniversary, JayCon XIII, my 13th annual 37th birthday party, is Saturday, June 15th, 2013 from 2 to 5 pm at the Flying Pie in SE Portland. We’re partying because I was born, and because I have beat cancer again and again and again we may not ever get to do this again.

If you can read this, you’re invited. Prior JayCon experience not required.

Also, if you’re coming from out of town, and you think I might not be aware of that, please contact me. There are some limited capacity extended festivities from Friday to Sunday.

Flying Pie Pizzeria
7804 SE Stark Street
Portland, 97215
(503) 254-2016
http://www.flying-pie.com/
[ Google Maps ]

As is traditional for JayCon, Paul M. Carpentier is specifically not invited.

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[cancer|events] JayWake, in which I host my own funeral

Small Clockwork Departure You are invited to my pre-mortem wake and roast, a somewhat morbid, deeply irreverent, but joyous celebration of me. This is a time for celebrating my life, loves, and dark, twisted sense of humor. Bring your stories (hysterical, at my expense), your tasteless jokes, and any and all expressions gleefully macabre. Come party with the man who has never passed up the chance to poke cancer in the eye and laugh about it.

Date/Time:
Saturday, July 27, 6:PM – ?

Location:
Holiday Inn Portland Airport
8439 NE Columbia Blvd
Portland, OR 97220

We are deeply grateful to the Cascade Writers’ Conference who is gifting us with the cancellation of their Saturday evening programming so that their members can attend JayWake. In addition, they have offered the unused space for our celebration. We are humbled by their generosity.

We are arranging for a group rate for out-of-town guests at the Holiday Inn. Please email tammyjoy6@gmail.com for information on the hotel.

Food and Libations:
There will be a buffet dinner for guests who RSVP. RSVP-ing tells us how many people to prepare for. Please email jaywakereg@gmail.com or reply to the Facebook event to RSVP. Donations will be accepted (but not required) to offset the cost of the meal.

Roast:
The Roast will begin at about 7:30. Be warned: the jokes and stories contained herein will not only push the boundaries of good taste, they will leapfrog over the boundaries blowing a raspberry. This is not a time to say how I touched your life. This is a time to say how I touched you inappropriately. Please contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com for information on being a scheduled speaker.

Donations:
We will be accepting donations to offset the cost of the meal and event. Use the PayPal button below, or contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com if you’d like to donate in another way.

T-Shirts:
T-shirts with a black and white line art version of the art below, by Howard Tayler, will be available. Contact jaywake.questions@gmail.com if you’d like to order one.

Planning to Attend?
If you are planning to attend, please RSVP to jaywakereg@gmail.com or at the Facebook event.

Clockwork Departure
Art © 2013 Howard Tayler. Reproduced with permission.

Questions? Email jaywake.questions@gmail.com.

This post is adapted from the JayWake page here.

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[cancer] Field notes from Cancerland, post-CT edition

JayWake

I will be making a full post on this, probably tomorrow, but planning for the JayWake continues apace. Event details are here, and there’s a Facebook event page as well. This will be Saturday, July 27, 2013 at Holiday Inn Portland Airport, in space generously donated by Cascade Writers. This is your chance to participate in my Official Good-bye. After all, I’ve always wanted to go to my own funeral.

Generosity

Generosity continues unabated. Gaslight Gathering raised a substantial amount of money for me, led by Val Ontell and Anastasia Hunter, with special thanks to auctioneer Dave Rodger. BayCon did it again two weeks later. Again, my profound thanks to Michael Siladi, Caradwen Braskat Arellanes, and auctioneers Dani Kollin and Eytan Kollin. And most especially my profound gratitude to everyone who contributed to each of those auctions.

Spending

Money flows in, money flows out. An unattributed accident at my house recently caused my MacBook Air to be literally flooded with water unbeknownst to me. I discovered this probably two or three hours after the fact. The old machine was well and truly bricked. I spent much of yesterday afternoon at the Apple Store’s Genius Bar where they confirmed that yes, it was well and truly bricked. Luckily the solid state drive hadn’t been fried out along with the batteries and motherboard, so we were able to recover my up-to-date data. This has set me back almost $2,000, including a like-for-like replacement Macbook Air, AppleCare for the new machine, and some new software licenses for several packages somehow hard-keyed to the old machine.

Friends and Family

I flew back from Rio Hondo, arriving home about midnight Sunday. Monday a number of us gathered at the house, including Lisa Costello and [info]the_child, as well as [info]mlerules, Team E— [info]lillypond (a/k/a my sister), the Niece, [info]tillyjane (a/k/a my mom), and for a little while, Mother of the Child. Speaking of generosity, my friends in the Omaha Beach Party had sent me an Omaha Steaks party pack, so Jacob cooked up a feast. Great progress was made in clearing the last of my dead storage boxes, sorting through the remaining loose filing, getting rid of a bunch of Goodwill and recycling stuff, and returning some stray postal bins. I now need to find a local friend or fan to be my Powell’s runner to help with some book reselling.

The New CT Scan and My Friend Regorafenib

I’ll post a full report shortly, but the new CT scan yesterday was discouraging in unsurprising ways. I am coping with that as I cope with everything on this journey: incrementally and verbosely. This was of course intended to baseline my tumor status so we can properly evaluate the effectiveness of the Regorafenib I started taking this past Monday. Each CT scan is like a road sign telling me how far I have to go to my final destination. A person could develop an aversion, I am telling you.

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[cancer] Field notes from Cancerland, high altitude edition

Next Treatment Steps

Monday I start Regorafenib. I am frankly rather afraid of this drug. It can have dreadful side effects. And at best, we have a 50/50 chance of seeing useful results. To that end, I have pushed for a baseline CT scan which I will be undergoing on Tuesday. This is out of sequence, as the normal minimum spacing between CT scans is 2 months, while my previous scan was three weeks ago. However, I felt it was important to have an accurate measurement of tumor size and distribution at the start of the Regorafenib series, to compare two months down the road. The hoped-for positive result is a halt in tumor growth. Also, this 3-week scan will give us a decent notion of how fast the tumors are growing.

Current side effects

I’ve been having a lot of problems with my feet this week. This has led to me being minimally mobile. Not good for exercise. On the other hand, simply existing at my current altitude is practically aerobic exercise. That in turn confuses the issue, as I sleep poorly up here anyway, so I cannot tell if I’m having sleep problems. Likewise, my skin continues troublesome, though it is slowly recovering. We discontinued the Vectibix five weeks ago, which removed the primary driver of my skin issues. And fatigue, lots of fatigue, but difficult again to disentangle that from altitude sickness.

JayWake

Planning for the JayWake continues. July 27th, 2013, in Portland. The link above has time and venue details, and hotel information. A rather substantial group of people have been making some rather substantial contributions to make this happen. I will be making public thanks in due time, and in accordance with the wishes of various donors. This is an open event, so if you can be in the Pacific Northwest that weekend, please do so.

Generosity

Both in the matter of the JayWake and otherwise, generosity continues to flow. To the point of overwhelming me sometime. Thank you all for being part of this journey I’m on. I feel slower and more tired every day, it seems, but I am sustained by your love.

The Unbearable Lightness of Satori

Speaking of overwhelming, yesterday on my social media footprint, I said, “Almost any book can make me cry now. The closer I grow to death, the more emotionally fragile I become.” It’s true. Even light, funny books bring tears to my eyes when I reach the point of closure. It’s a very strange mental space to be in. I don’t reject the reaction. It’s genuine, it’s coming from inside me. Rather, this is a different way for me to consume narrative. Another part of the journey.

Every step is a revelation.

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[conventions|repost] Announcing JayCon XIII – plus – JayWake

ETA: We will be having my living wake, the JayWake on Saturday, July 27th. This will be a celebration of my life and a giant flip of the bird to my death. Including both a wake and a roast. Watch this space for more details.

Every year, some people tell me that I need to announce JayCon early so they can get it in on their calendars. Every year, some people tell me I need to announce JayCon later, because they don’t plan that far ahead. Sometimes, these are the same people. So starting now, and going on through the spring, I will be reposting this announcement with occasional edits or updates as needed.

In celebration of my natal anniversary, JayCon XIII, my 13th annual 37th birthday party, is Saturday, June 15th, 2013 from 2 to 5 pm at the Flying Pie in SE Portland. We’re partying because I was born, and because I have beat cancer again and again and again we may not ever get to do this again.

If you can read this, you’re invited. Prior JayCon experience not required.

Also, if you’re coming from out of town, and you think I might not be aware of that, please contact me. There are some limited capacity extended festivities from Friday to Sunday.

Flying Pie Pizzeria
7804 SE Stark Street
Portland, 97215
(503) 254-2016
http://www.flying-pie.com/
[ Google Maps ]

As is traditional for JayCon, Paul M. Carpentier is specifically not invited.

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