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[links] Link salad gets busy with the medical crud

Seven Deadly Sins + Math — Hahah. (Via [info]threeoutside.)

Silence Is Now a Luxury ProductA report on the quiet-car-ization of America. (Via AH.)

You’re Drinking the Wrong Kind of Milk — Moo.

Crazy living rock is one of the weirdest creatures we’ve ever seen — I guess it’s a coral, sort of? Weird stuff. (Via [info]scarlettina.)

Alien-Looking Skeleton Poses Medical Mystery — Cool, but, uh, yeah. (Via [info]scarlettina.)

Clinical Whole Genome Sequencing: Not Quite Ready for Prime Time? — (Via AH.)

Do Neutrinos Change Flavor at Night?

Getting the math of the Universe to cancel outNew modification to gravity may explain the cosmological constant.

Who Should Name the Craters on Mars, You or Astronomers? — (Thanks to David Goldman.)

MIT’s New Robotic Fish Can Change Direction As Rapidly As A Real Fish

German Robot Pole Dancers! — Because reasons! (Thanks, I think, [info]danjite.)

Science Graphic of the Week: Bombogenesis, the Most Extreme Weather This Winter — (Thanks to David Goldman.)

Interactive Map Shows Impact of WWII Firebombing of Japan, If It Had Happened on US Soil — Wow… (Via [info]shsilver.)

The Way We Live Now — Yup. You will know that they are Christians by their love.

Oklahoma FOX Affiliate Edited Evolution Out of ‘Cosmos’ By Removing 15 SECONDS of Footage — Exactly why I was appalled to see such a wonderful show come back on such a terrible network. FOX is not the natural home for anything evidence-based, whether’s it’s honestly reported news or actual science.

Ohio State Rep: ‘Public Education In America Is Socialism, What Is The Solution?’ — Conservatives in their own words. Poe’s Law would apply, except speaker intent is clear by his position. By the way, this guy is vice-chair of the Ohio House Education Committee. “Is our children learning?”, to quote another very prominent conservative.

Guns May Soon Be Everywhere in GeorgiaSoon gun owners in the state of Georgia may be allowed to pack heat almost anywhere—including K-12 schools, bars, churches, government buildings, and airports. The “Safe Carry Protection Act” (HB 875) would also expand Georgia’s Stand Your Ground statute, the controversial law made famous by the Trayvon Martin killing, which allows armed citizens to defend themselves with deadly force if they believe they are faced with serious physical harm. What could possibly go wrong!?

Republican Family Values — A missive from the Oregon GOP. The Republican Party is proud to be known as the party of liberty. As the party of freedom, we believe that Americans should be free to live their lives as they wish, so long as they do not impede the freedom of others to do so. Therefore they support a gay marriage ban. This doesn’t pass the logic level of a fourth-grade class debate, let alone rise to the basic standards of American citizenship. Conservatives…

Food stamps: Oregon becomes fourth state to avoid farm bill cuts — That’s called compassion, and constituent service. Much less effective at generating more angry white guys than grandstanding against anything that might make Obama look good, but that’s conservative priorities for you. I like living in a (relatively) sane Blue State where the public good can at least sometimes trump partisan self-interest.

Foreign Officials In the Dark About Their Own Spy Agencies’ Cooperation with NSA

?otD: Got IV?


3/14/2014
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 8.0 hours (almost solid, some daytime napping)
Body movement: 0 minutes (hall walking to come)
Weight: n/a
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching wives how to be submissive: 0
Currently reading: n/a (chemo brain)

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[cancer] NIH Day 9

Yesterday was a weird day. Very tough in some ways, easy in others. I was quite discouraged to jump from a one-hour infusion to about six hours of infusion due to reduced electrolytes, but since I have been eating almost nothing, well, duh, I guess. It was supposed to be sort of a day off.

The food aversion problem continues to get a little better, but not soon enough. And I accidentally gave myself a setback. Also, spoke at length to the EMDR specialist here, who is going to start working with me today to see about reconditioning me back to being able to take solids and fluids by mouth easily. Right now it’s very tough, a result of last weekend’s cyclophosphamide infusion being so terribly hard on my upper GI. I’m pretty sure Dad was fascinated by the EMDR guy and the intake process, which he witnessed almost all of.

Also, a rocking rash all over my chest from the adhesives in the dressing. I tell people and tell people I react to medical adhesives. but nobody ever does anything until after the problem presents. This happens with every new clinical. Sort of like my eternal conversation about why I really, really don’t tolerate opiates well, and no, I’m not crying “wolf”.

I walked outside the ward more, which was as much about boredom as anything else. Various of us had some good chats, but I’m mostly too unfocused to read or watch Netflix or hop on the phone.

Meanwhile, this morning was the last of my kamikaze chemo sessions. One of the doctors reluctantly confirmed that the cyclophosphamide which knocked me back so hard was basically mustard gas. That gave me a whole new perspective on WWI, I can tell you. I start the TIL infusions tomorrow around noon, and the IL-2 infusions tomorrow evening.

I am still afraid.

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[links] Link salad still wishes it slept better

Graphing Depression and Anxiety — Jim C. Hines is wise about writing productivity in the face of such widespread challenges.

Candlemen — A character type based on Mainspring. Very cool.

The Paintings of Jason de Graaf — Wow, the light work. I hope this guy is doing SF and fantasy covers. (Via [info]willyumtx.)

Presenting the Mid-Century Modern… toothbrush — Because advertising circa 1949.

Fascinating Old Maps of Both Real and Ridiculous NYC Transit Projects — Cool beans. Some alt.hist here. (Via David Goldman.)

22-Pound Housecat Who Trapped Owners After Attacking Baby To Get Therapy — I don’t think it’s the cat that needs therapy. Ah, Portland. (Via Lisa Costello.)

New Jersey Bans Tesla to Ensure Buying a Car Will Always Suck — Ah, the New Jersery Auto Dealer Preservation Act, to better serve your needs without competitive pressure from new business models.

T. rex Had a Small, Cute Cousin — Uh…

First thin films of spin ice reveal cold secrets

U of A solves deep-Earth water mysteryTesting on the tiny mineral sample proves there is water about 400 to 700 kilometres below the Earth’s surface.

The Unfrozen North — Nothing to see here, citizen. Move along.

Recent estimates of low climate sensitivity were flawedBetter accounting for aerosols shows CO2 just as potent as we thought. This is how climate science works. New and contradictory data is absorbed and accounted for, and theories are adjusted. It’s science, after all.

Principled bigotry is still, you know, bigotry — Confidential to religious conservatives in America: Listen up. (Via Slacktivist Fred Clark.)

Mississippi, Louisiana, Georgia top list of gay-porn watching states — Because good conservative Red State morality trumps Blue State liberal degeneracy, that’s why.

Couple from Black Earth church convicted of child abuse — Ah, the magic of sincerely held religious beliefs. Which really are not a get-out-of-jail-free card for criminal conduct or outright immorality, the fevered dreams of religious conservatives in their persecution of gays and women notwithstanding. (Via Slacktivist Fred Clark.)

Why We Hate Corporations

The Triumph Of Arrant Bullshit On The Affordable Care Act{T]his quote is immeasurably tragic. It represents a kind of final victory for mean-spirited and uncharitable propaganda over reality, a triumph for misinformation, sabotage, and arrant bullshit in the service of a cruel ideology and faceless oligarchy.

?otD: Yawn much more?


3/13/2014
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 6.0 hours (badly interrupted, some daytime napping)
Body movement: 0 minutes (hall walking to come)
Weight: n/a
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching wives how to be submissive: 0
Currently reading: n/a (chemo brain)

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[dreams|culture] My chemo-addled mind on pop culture

Weird have been my dreams of late. Ah medication and stress, those twinned servants of the entelechy of dreams.

Last night I didn’t just get a few postcards from my subconscious. I got a whole truckload 70mm CinemaScope reels shot on expired TechniColor film stock, complete with house posters and lobby standees. (Hmm, when I die, maybe I should continue going to conventions as a standee. Anyone want to take on carrying me around?)

At any rate, I enjoyed an hour long series of linked dream vignettes that was rather like watching Heavy Metalimdb ] by way of Moorcock’s Eternal Champion cycle. Sturm und drang, world-ending battles, dead peasants everywhere, myself in various guises, genders and ethnic modalities struggling to save the world over and over again, and mostly losing. All the way through, I always knew that I had lost or was going to lose. People implored me to stop.

On the plus side, my late uncle-by-marriage Big Jay McMinnis made an appearance as a Cherokee centaur. That would be Big Jay as I knew him in the early seventies, loose, wild and free, before he divorced my aunt and that bitter, judgmental form of churchiness ate his brain. The younger Big Jay would have approved. The later Big Jay would have been appalled. (And no, I was not named for him, my aunt did not even meet him until some years after I was born.)

So yeah, pop culture filter through the chemo-addled brain. Another funny bit popped up yesterday as well. Many years ago, I was a happy member of the Slug Tribe writing group in Austin, Texas. We met two Tuesdays a month in a community center conveniently located not far from my then-house. The room next door to ours was occupied by a Latin dance class. They would begin dancing to Santana’s version of “Oye Como Va”, and stop after the first few bars while (presumably) the teacher fussed at people. I have forever associated the opening of that song with delivering and receiving writing critique.

Funny, the things that come back to you.

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[cancer] NIH Day Eight

Not so much to report today. We’re in the lull between the main chemo and the TIL infusion/IL-2 therapy. All the things I was grousing about yesterday got fixed except the toilet problem, and I have hopes of that being fixed today via a supplemental seat.

And while yesterday I was grousing about infrastructure and small things, I want to emphasize a point I’ve made before. The patient focus here at NIH is excellent. Different individuals approach it different ways, but my confidence in my doctors and their medical associates is absolute. These guys are great. I know even as terrible as I’ve felt, there’s a reason for everything. We’re advancing the frontiers of science and working on possibly extending my own life. That’s good enough for me.

On the downside, my chest catheter is giving a lot of difficulty. Infusions work just fine, but blood return has proven almost impossible to achieve. The current thinking is that the lines are twisted, or pressed against the vein in some fashion. Several solutions have been discussed, all of them varying degrees of alarming. It’s possible I’m going to have a quite unpleasant day. I have already requested sedation if we have to go back in and dig around. A lot of sedation.

Other than that, calm before the storm. I’m not over the cyclophosphamide-induced food aversion, but it has been reduced through careful management. The cough has backed off a bit more, too. My research fellow is leaning hard toward the cough being the tail end of a long, slow post-operative infection. To which if true I say “Hallelujah” if true, because it means I don’t have to put up with this crap for the rest of my life.

As always, we shall see.

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[links] Link salad wishes it slept better

The spiciest meals in BritainA burger in Brighton is so hot that people have to sign a legal disclaimer before eating it. And a curry in Edinburgh has hospitalised two diners. Here’s a roundup of those and other extreme spicy eating challenges. (Via Scrivener’s Error.)

Say bye bye to parmesan, muenster and feta: Europe wants its cheese backAs part of trade talks, the EU wants to ban the use of European names like parmesan and gruyere on cheeses made in the US. Cheese wars? (Via AH.)

Every Dog Has Its Data — Woof? (Via Lisa Costello.)

Baby Conductor: Children Absorbing the World Around Them

California pushes to finish driverless car rules

Body Odor ID: Your New Smelly Password — Sometimes the jokes just write themselves. (Via David Goldman.)

Fukushima operator may have to dump contaminated water into PacificAs Japan marks the third anniversary of the earthquake, tsunami and nuclear disaster, Tepco is struggling to find a solution for hundreds of thousands of tonnes of contaminated water. (Via Susie Madrak.)

Coping with exceptional ice in the Great Lakes

Is the Senate’s climate change all-nighter more than a one-night stand?

By the Way, Your Home Is On Fire: The Climate of Change and the Dangers of Stasis — I am reminded of something a one-time friend with emergency services training said to me. “There are three kinds of people in a disaster. Those who run away, those who freeze, and those who run towards. The ones who freeze die.”

$600K Taken From Safe At Osteen’s Megachurch — So if this was an inside job, whose side was God on?

The Word – Pew! Pew! Pew!A Kentucky Baptist organization announces a 25-gun giveaway to lure men back to church.

8 Reasons Young Americans Don’t Fight Back: How the US Crushed Youth Resistance — (Via Lisa Costello.)

They’d rather die than be wrong about ObamacareYou know, I probably have as much disdain for Republicans as they have for me. But if one of them were to show me irrefutable proof that say, America has fewer gun deaths than other places due to our proliferation of gun ownership, I would have no choice but to believe it. These people simply put their fingers in their ears and sing “lalalalala”.

Is libertarianism taking hold of GOP? The big problem with the GOP is that its ideologies profoundly alienate vast swaths of the electorate. Gay rights and same-sex marriage — overwhelmingly supported by the young — are as thoroughly owned by Democrats as were civil rights two generations ago. Republicans’ harsh rhetoric on immigration puts off the rapidly growing Hispanic population. Democratic stances on choice and workplace equality attract women. And GOP opposition to a higher minimum wage drives working-class voters into Democratic arms. Must be nice being the party of ideas, GOP. How else do you generate all those angry white guys?

Young Republicans Find Fault With Elders on List of Social Issues — Given that social issues have defined the Republican party since Reagan’s ascendancy, if those things matter, why be a Republican?

Michele Bachmann Laments That ‘The Gay Community Have So Bullied The American People’“And the thing that I think is getting a little tiresome is the gay community, they have so bullied the American people and they have so intimidated politicians that politicians fear them and so they think they get to dictate the agenda everywhere. Well, not with the Constitution you don’t.” What color do you suppose the sky is on Planet Bachmann? Paisley, maybe, if the Gay Menace has hacked their way in already.

Hey, Conservatives! Are You Winning or Losing?Palin combines whining and gloating into a message of vengeance that makes yesterday’s losers tomorrow’s invincible winners. And that may be the most satisfying conservative message of all.

Version 1.0 of the 2016 Republican Presidential Primaries — I always enjoy this inside baseball aspect of politics. (Via David Goldman.)

As Though Iraq Never HappenedThe short memory of Condoleezza Rice.

?otD: Yawn much?


3/12/2014
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 7.0 hours (badly interrupted)
Body movement: 0 minutes (hall walking to come)
Weight: n/a
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching wives how to be submissive: 0
Currently reading: n/a (chemo brain)

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[cancer] NIH Day Seven

I am now in my seventh day here. (Eighth? Not sure where the count begins.) I’m still a bit addled from the Cyclophosphamide dosages over the weekend. (Just typing the name makes me feel ill, via the mighty power of suggestion. And I am still retching horribly from time to time.) But it’s pulling together. I had a good night’s sleep, albeit somewhat interrupted. Today through Friday they;re dosing me with Fludarabine, which is considerably less ugly. Friday or Saturday I start IL-2, which will probably be the toughest med I’ll ever encounter. I am more than a little afraid. In fact, I am very afraid.

I’ve made some observations here, which I offer in no particular order except that the one with the somewhat triggery and gross medical photograph will be under a cut at the end,

Toilets in the patient rooms

Whatever healthcare architect specified the toilets in the patient rooms here had obviously never used one. They’re the kind that stick out from the wall, and oval of the seat is longer that the usual American toilet design. And they have a very high waterline. Like so:

NIH toilet

Note the red line. Think about it for a minute. Lisa Costello says when she uses the one in the visitor bathroom, she often gives herself a finger bath whilst cleaning. Me, I dangle. As most men due to some degree. Little Elvis is of a felicitous size and shape, but my cremasteric reflex is in good working order, so he’s usually safe. However, my testicles drop right into the soup every time.

I’m sure I don’t have to draw you (another) picture. Let’s just say my management strategies for this are annoyingly kindergarten-like, as I’m not normally in the habit of clutching my junk while I poop.

Why in the hell anyone thought this was a good design, I cannot imagine.

How best to pee in a handheld urinal (if you’re me)

I have discovered that the best way for me to pee in one of those little plastic urinals is to lean my forehand against the bathroom wall, tilting my weight forward, and use my two hands as God intended them to be used in that situation. I have no idea why this should be true.

Hot water? In a hospital? What hot water?

As long as we’re on the subject of plumbing design in a healthcare facility, the hot water at the tap is very, very slow. If it hasn’t been used for a while, I’m talking two-rounds-of-Happy-Birthday slow. I understand instant-on hot water isn’t practical from an energy efficiency point of view, but maybe they could have put a few more boilers in the architecture. I mean, it’s not like I have any reasons to need to keep washing my hands a lot.

The saga of my hospital bed

Oh, the bed. It’s a perfectly good bed. All the mechanical bits work just fine. Up, down, et cetera. But the light controls and nurse call built into the flip-up side panels did not. I asked about this on checking in. “Just use the remote”, I was told. The remote, btw, provides no visual feedback such as an orange light or something when you press the nurse call. I pointed out this was a significant safety hazard, because if I awoke confused or seizing or something, the side panel nurse call was much more obvious and easy to reach, and I might night be able to hunt for the remote. A non-functioning emergency call button is a hazard, period. “Loop the remote around the side rail.”

I’m sure Risk Management would love to hear all that.

So we kept asking. And asking. Nurses, doctors, maintenance guys, the ward administrator. The problem, it quickly devolved, was the bed’s data output cable had a head that was incompatible with the data input on the utility wall behind the bed. We asked for another bed. No.

The problem with being in a hospital is that if you’re trying to accomplish something that doesn’t flow up through your nurse to your doctor, that’s very hard to do. Administration, infrastructure, physical plant and so forth are deliberately invisible to the patients.

Finally a guy came in to change our clock battery for DST. He was a hospital electrician. We asked him about the bed. No, not his job, but he knew who’s job it was. Meanwhile, I think the ward admin had finally gotten hold of someone. (Bed services apparently not being available over the weekend.) The bed mechanic showed up in due course, agreed with our diagnosis, and said he’d fix it. He came back half an hour later with a cart full of tools and equipment and tore apart the utility wall to swap out the bed data interface.

All ended well. But we must have asked literally fifteen people. It was just weird.

My footlight

Speaking of physical plant, there’s a small footlight in my room next to the bathroom door. I suppose it’s intended for night use. It’s inside the wall, and provides a corresponding glow on the other side. Except the filter or whatever on my side has slipped. So when I turn the footlight on, it shines directly in my eyes in bed with an unmediated glow of a bulb. I have asked to have this fixed as many times as I’ve asked for the bed to be fixed, but we haven’t yet found the vice-president of footlights at NIH, apparently.

Little roly-poly bits on the floor

I am attended by two nurses per day on 12-hour shifts. The odd medical assistant wanders through to do vitals. Episodically doctors appear like Canadian trap door alligators. And they leave behind a trail of syringe caps and similar small plastic items on the floor. I find this an astonishing fall hazard, as small round things may as well be ball bearings if you hit them at just the appropriate angle. Another item for Risk Management I guess.

Using the incentive spirometer to bring down a fever

One of my least favorite medical devices in the incentive spirometer. They feature prominently in post-operative recovery regimes.

incentive_spirometer

I have learned a new use for them which surprised me considerably. If I measure a low to moderate fever, the nurses here will sometimes have me use the incentive spirometer for several minutes. It can bring my temperature down by a degree Centigrade or more. Weird.

The fifteen-minute Tylenol

Yesterday, NIH implemented a new medication management system. Literally every pill or dosage has to be scanned before it can go into me. This has obvious applications for both patient care and inventory control. It’s also, like all new release software, buggy and strange.

Last night, my nurse was trying to give me 650 mg of Tylenol. For some reason, my orders were written as two separate 325 mg doses. This resulted in fifteen minutes of exasperated effort on her part, and that of another nurse, before they just gave me the damn Tylenol and went off to work this out somewhere else. Given that I was on the edge of falling asleep at the time, and really wanted the Tylenol so I could go lights out, this was frustrating as all get out. Ah, progress.

My inoperative lungs

The bottom third of my lungs are silent now. I no longer have use of them. The tumors have crowded out the healthy tissue and blocked air access. So when a doctor or nurse listens to my lungs, they sometimes comment on this. I am always on the edge of short of breath, and find this somewhere between creepy and terrifying.

The twisted pair inside my chest

Astute readers will recall that last week I had a dual-lumen Hickman catheter installed in my left chest by Interventional Radiology. It hasn’t worked worth a damn since.

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Inputs are fine. They can pump stuff down all day long. And if they’re pumping down, they can extract. But right now I’m only on the infuser about 30 minutes per day. And after a while, output shuts down. No blood draws. Apparently I either have excellent clotting factors, or the lines are twisted in my chest and pinching one another. The horrible, whole-body spasms I’ve been having with the wrenching and coughing can’t be helping that either. Right now I’m waiting out a TPA push to see if that clears. Otherwise I’m afraid they’re going to put me on KVO (Keep Vein Open) orders with a continuous drip. My real terror here is that they’ll decide to take this out and put another one in.

Meh.


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[links] Link salad feels a bit better during the lull between assault waves

Bargain Book ClubA reading list for the almost-illiterate Heh.

Aggravated cat is subdued by Portland police after terrorizing family — Life imitates Portlandia.

A History and Account of Daylight Savings

95% of bank ATMs face end of security supportAn estimated 95% of American bank ATMs run on Windows XP, and Microsoft is killing off tech support for that operating system on April 8.

Is the Wolf a Real American Hero?

How elephants react to human voices

Fickle Sun Changed Europe’s Climate for 1,000 Years

Americans have no idea how much water they’re usingThey also think everyone else should be efficient while they simply conserve.

The Relationship Between Hearing and Memory

Bieber Deposed — Can we trade him back to Canada? Maybe for Rob Ford?

Think a hangover will teach you not to drink? Guess againIt only delays the next drink if you’re short on cash.

Microbes and Metabolites Fuel an Ambitious Aging ProjectCraig Venter’s new company wants to improve human longevity by creating the world’s largest, most comprehensive database of genetic and physiological information.

The Fat DrugHow humankind unwittingly joined an experiment on antibiotics and weight gain. (Via David Goldman.)

U.S. Uninsured Rate Continues to FallUninsured rate drops most among lower-income and black Americans. And amazingly, America has yet to collapse into smoking Socialist ruins.

Teens taunted by bullies are more likely to consider, attempt suicide — This just in: water is wet. I know the point of stories like this is that quantifiable study results can prompt official action, but as long-time victim of childhood bullying who had a lot of suicidal ideation and one semi-serious attempt, I have ask why anyone in authority over children needs to wait for academic approval?

Oh Lordy – on the forthcoming Christian film PersecutionBasically, this is a movie in which it’s overtly asserted that in order for Christians to be “free” the government cannot endorse the idea of fairness to all religions. Indeed, it seems that liberty has now been interpreted as a requirement to officially acknowledge that America is a Christian Nation and must adhere to Christian precepts.

When an Undue Burden? — What if gun laws were written like abortion laws? Would those Constitution-loving conservatives embrace the intent of the Founders the same way? (Via Scrivener’s Error.)

Journalists should stop ‘balancing’ stories with Science Denialists: Cosmos’s Neil DeGrasse Tyson — Either that or go all the way. Every time a story runs about a weather satellite, a Flat Earth denialist should get equal time. It would be precisely as intellectually credible as evolution denial and climate denial, as the Bible clearly states that the Earth has four corners, and would help those elements in our culture hell bent on destroying any public understanding of science to further their political ends.

Why men shouldn’t be allowed to vote — Heh.

61% of young Republicans favor same-sex marriage — The Gay Menace strikes again, weakening the minds of young voters.

The Uses and Abuses of ReaganOne of Bush’s flaws is that he governed as more of a hard-line ideologue than Reagan ever pretended to be, and another is that he claimed to be an internationalist while making a mockery of America’s reputation in the world. Republicans should not be deluded into thinking that they are obliged to follow Bush’s example in order to honor Reagan, but neither should they feel compelled to respond to contemporary events as if nothing had changed in the last thirty years. Confidential to GOP in America: Want another Reagan? Elect another senile old fraud who projects a strong Daddy image. It worked for you last time.

?otD: How’s the cough?


3/11/2014
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 8.0 hours (interrupted)
Body movement: 0 minutes (hall walking to come)
Weight: n/a
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching wives how to be submissive: 0
Currently reading: n/a (chemo brain)

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[links] Link salad corresponds from its bed of pain

29 Incredible Colorized Historical Photos — (Via Lisa Costello.)

What Happens in the Brain When Blind People Learn to See With Sound — (Via David Goldman.)

A Hole in Mars — A very cool photo.

Morpheus Shows NASA the Path

Portolan Charts ‘Too Accurate’ to be Medieval — Huh.

‘The wife is to voluntarily submit’ — Uh, yeah. I’m all for a little consensual submission play, but to make it a mandatory lifetime comment is more than a little sick. (Via Slacktivist Fred Clark.)

CPACer On Women’s Issues Panel: No Stupid Comments This Time Please — If you have make about a point out of telling people this, you have a serious problem.

CPAC Panelist: It Is ‘A Liberal Lie’ That States Ban Gay MarriageTo be clear: 30 states have banned same-sex marriage in their state constitution, usually by legally defining marriage as between a man and a woman. Because being a conservative means never having to tell the truth about anything you disapprove of. Once again the justly famed moral probity of Republicans is on proud public display.

Is there any super bad-ass Catholic weapon around out there? — Uh… (Via [info]danjite.)

Prosecutors balk at being told they have to be honestThey are saying that if you think prosecutors should be honest you are biased against prosecutors. Which may actually be true, since so many of them are dishonest.

How a Hacker Intercepted FBI and Secret Service Calls With Google Maps — (Via [info]danjite.)

The NSA Has An Advice Columnist. Seriously. — Ask Zelda.

Bill O’Reilly says Muslims will Diss Hillary; but 8 Muslim Countries Chose Female Leaders

ALEC is coming to a town near you — This is terrible news, assuming you don’t equate lunatic fringe right wing astroturfing with functional democracy. These are the people who legalized the murder of black teen agers by middle aged assholes through Stand Your Ground, after all.

Do Virginia students really need Terry McAuliffe deciding what to call the “Sea of Japan”?Virginia’s new Democratic Gov. Terry McAuliffe is learning that campaign promises have consequences. He’s landed the commonwealth in the middle of a longstanding dispute over the Sea of Japan and the Korean Peninsula. In the process, he helped Democrats lose the moral high ground when it comes to education. Gee, thanks, Terry. Big help to the progressive cause there, moron.

Paul Ryan’s Free School Lunch Story Never Actually Happened — It is inconceivable that a prominent conservative representing the political party which most loudly stands for moral probity and personal ethics could possibly misrepresent the truth. After all, we have Ronald Reagan’s Welfare Queen speech as the gold standard by which such things should be measured.

Fuck Your Religious Beliefs, Sincerely — An Open Letter to Michele Bachmann — (Via Lisa Costello.)

Rep. Paul Ryan calls for cuts in anti-poverty programsIt is, in a way, nice to see the likes of Mr. Ryan at least talking about the need to help the poor. But somehow their notion of aiding the poor involves slashing benefits while cutting taxes on the rich. Funny how that works. Look, they’re Republicans. If aliens invaded and the Yellowstone supervolcano exploded, their first response would be a call for tax cuts on the highest-earning Americans. That’s not a policy position, that’s a fetish.

?otD: Good drugs or good sleep?


3/10/2014
Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 6.5 hours (very fitful and interrupted)
Body movement: 0 minutes (hall walking to come)
Weight: n/a
Number of FEMA troops on my block teaching wives how to be submissive: 0
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[cancer] NIH Day Six

It’s Monday morning here at scenic NIH. I haven’t eaten anything since Friday afternoon but two soda crackers, of which I thrwe up. My dreams have been filled with strange chowder, including the realization that I own a Black Knight pinball machine. In point of fact, I do not, though I’ve long coveted them. They’re spendy to buy and spendy to maintain and where would I put one anyway?

They started me Friday afternoon on Cyclophosphamide as my first stage chemo agent. My mind and body both went to tell. Since then the longest stretch of sleep I’ve had is about three hours, and my total across three nights is ridiculously low. Plus all the usual stuff like diarrhea and vomiting. Uncontrollable in my case, which is unusual. Plus some unusual (for me at least) stuff like all 32 of my teeth aching at once, and my face browning hot to the touch.

I’ve run a series of low grade fevers. The chest port they put it keeps clogging. One of my nurses believes the lines are twisted inside of mu chest. Some of the vomiting was so severe that afterwards my forearms ached for an hour so, something I’ve never experienced. Dad, [info]tillyjane (a/k/a my mom) and Lisa Costello have been magnificent.

I have been magnificently miserable.

Things are a bit better today. The chemo I’m on until Friday, the name of which escapes my right now, is much more narrowly targeted and shouldn’t leave me feeling so oppressed. I need to lose the Cyclophosphamide-induced gag reflex before I resume eating, but hopefully that will be today.

When I start the IL-2 on Friday or Saturday in order to supplement the TIL cell infusion, I’ve been told to expect a weight gain of 20-30 pounds in less than a handful of days. It can do weird things to your metabolism. I’m also told I’ll lose that weight before they discharge me, presumably by pissing it away, but wow… That also puts me in mind of ascites, which I expect to be a feature of my terminal decline.

Meanwhile, I suffer for science. Please excuse any weird mistakes in this blog post, my brain is not fully back on line yet.

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