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[personal] The documentary trailer

Donnie Reynolds of Waterloo Productions has posted the first trailer for Lakeside, the documentary he is producing and directing about my experiences with cancer.


Std-Def (for mobile devices or slow Internet connections)

This has been an incredibly difficult and emotional process for all of us, and will continue to be some time. I believe he’ll still be filming and interviewing through JayCon of 2013, though I’m not certain of the shooting schedule. (I’m just the documentary subject, I’m firewalled from the business and production questions for reasons both ethical and practical.) Take three minutes and have a look, if you haven’t seen it already.

Videos © 2012, Waterloo Productions, LLC. All rights reserved. Used with permission.

[links] Link salad rings in Boxing Day

The trailer for Lakeside, the documentary about me and cancer, is up — Waterloo Productions has it.

Giving Mom’s Book Five Stars? Amazon May Cull Your Review — Hmmm. They need to do something about the review system, especially the one-star “punishment reviews” from the $9.99 ebook lunatics, but is this the way? Not that I care, it is Amazon after all. (Via my Dad.)

Crafty Peruvian spider builds its own decoy — (Via David Goldman.)

Termites act as tiny miners, lead humans to gold

Jack Klugman’s secret, lifesaving legacy — He once stormed the beaches of Normandy. He later stormed the beaches of the Senate. (Via [info]danjite, among others.)

The Moral AnimalReligion binds individuals into groups through habits of altruism, creating relationships of trust strong enough to defeat destructive emotions. Nice of the author to say that. Has he looked at the public face of religion in the United States? Public religion in the US is not about altruism and trust. It’s about hating gays and liberals, punishing women and the poor, persecuting private sexual behavior, and promoting conservative in-group politics. Those positions have come to define religion in the public square in this country, everything from the Mormon church’s disgraceful support for Proposition 8 to the Catholic bishops’ pathetic but adamant lies about the ACA and birth control. Not altruism, persecution.

DUI Charge: Jan. 4 Court Date for Idaho Sen. Crapo — Hey, lookie here, a Mormon teetotalling Republican senator arrested for DUI. Good thing we have decades of moral leadership from conservative politicians and media to demonstrate the private lives and personal errors of politicians are off limits. I’m sure Senator Crapo will receive the respectful treatment he deserves, just like the Clintons and the Obamas and Kennedys always did. Meanwhile, yet another conservative public scold is revealed as a inevitable hypocrite, but no one on the Right will care. Social conservatives, my ass. Look, Clinton’s penis!

?otD: Do you box?

Writing time yesterday: 0.0 hours (chemo brain)
Hours slept: 8.25 hours (8.0 hours solid, 0.25 hours napping)
Body movement: 0.5 hours (30 minutes on the stationary bike)
Weight: 210.8
Number of FEMA troops on my block confiscating firearms and shutting down the Internet: 0
Currently reading: The Hydrogen Sonata by Iain M. Banks

[cancer] Chemo series three, session six, day one

Waterloo Productions will be following my chemo experience in realtime on Facebook this weekend. Come along for the ride, if you’re curious.

It’s chemo six of series three, and is significant for a couple of reasons.

One, this is the thirtieth chemotherapy session I’ve had since the beginning of 2010. I’m here to tell you, this shit gets old. Beats dying, though.

Two, this is the breakpoint. I’ll be off chemo from after this weekend until about the beginning of February, 2013. We need my body to rest and recover for about four weeks so I can tolerate the liver resection I’ll undergo in mid-January. That will be my third liver resection and fifth major surgery in past five years. I’ll need two or three weeks to recover from surgery so I csn tolerate the chemo again, at which point I’ll have six more sessions through about April or early May of 2013.

What this does mean is I’ll have a week or two of slightly more normal energy and appetites starting the week after Christmas. I might even be able to go out in the daylight. Oh what fun.

Pretty soon I’ll be talking to my surgeon about dates and tests and so forth. I have another CT, as well as a PET and an MRI in my near future. Hopefully all that medical radiation and superstrong magnetic fields will transform heretofore unknown genes in such a way as I’ll acquire superpowers.

Meanwhile, I prepare to toddle off to the oncology clinic and experience the wonderful world of chemo side effects. Lately even the Ringer’s they start me with gives me nausea, which is obviously and annoyingly psychosomatic, so now I have to take a Lorazepam to even get in the chair.

Hope your weekend is better than mine will be.

[links] Link salad is here on a shore leave, though we are miles at sea.

Mountain Man — A very short film about me from Waterloo Productions. Which will make you laugh your ass off… (And yes, this really happened. It isn’t just clever editing.)

Jay Lake on “The Fathomless Abyss” — In which I am interviewed at SF Signal by Charles Tan.

Class, today’s word is irony — Banned books. Really, it’s not funny. (Via [info]goulo.)

Incredible surreal volcanic riverscapes

ALT/1977: WE ARE NOT TIME TRAVELERS — But we damn well should be. This is hilarious. Retro gadgets.

Collier’s: Gorgeous Art, Breathtaking Ideas — Days of future past for the space program.

Do the Bacteria in Your Gut Also Influence Your Mind? — My world can certainly be all about the poop, but then I’m not a baseline case.

Scientists ask for legal safeguards to keep their work out of courtOil spill researchers have their preliminary data subpoenaed by BP.

Great Barrier Reef has lost half its corals since 1985, new study says — Remember kids, climate change is a liberal hoax. The Republican party says so. Who are you going to believe? Conservatives, or the evidence? Really. Nothing to see here, citizen. Move along.

The Last Four Years in One Quote — Ah, the miracle of the conservative mind. (Via Slacktivist Fred Clark.)

Food Stamp Ridicule Humiliates Woman At The Supermarket — This is a woman on dialysis, and public assistance, who says, “Most of the people that we have to choose from — Obama with his spending and his health care reform, and then Mitt Romney, he just wants to let poor people die, so either way we’re doomed. So I don’t see any point in voting.” That spending and that healthcare reform is what’s keeping her alive, but the conservative narrative so dutifully fostered in Your Liberal Media has convinced her it’s a bad thing for the government to work to keep her alive. I could weep for this country.

Feeding perceptions of the U.S. abroadWayne Swan has launched a blistering attack on US Republicans, declaring “cranks and crazies” have taken over the party and have come to represent the No 1 threat to the world’s biggest economy.

Arrested Man Snags Pics Of Cops Allegedly Searching His iPhone Without Subpoena — Huh, there’s an app for that?

Top Florida Republicans have no advice for election officials about voter fraud by … Republicans — But boy are they all over any potential fraud from likely Democratic voters. Because reasons. And ethics. Conservatives are made of ethics.

No, You’re the Racist, or Blogging About Obama Phones — Mmm, the gentle art of political suasion.

Telling Stories About Polls — What happens when conservative ideology conflicts with real world data, version 3,462. (Hint: reality never wins.)

Top Seven Errors President Obama has made on the Middle East — He’s not doing a hell of a lot better than R. Money threatens to.

?otD: Are you the mermaid who took King Neptune for a ride?

Writing time yesterday: 1.0 hour (revisions to the novelette)
Body movement: 0.5 hour stationary bike ride
Hours slept: 6.5 (interrupted, with napping)
Weight: 226.4
Currently reading: Heartland by Mark Teppo

[cancer] Off to visit Schrödinger’s tumor

This morning I’m off to the imaging center for my CT scan and CEA bloodwork. This is preparatory to Wednesday’s oncology consult. Donnie Reynolds is here filming for the documentary. Lisa Costello is here to hold my hand.

Me, I’m here to hold my shit together.

Had a somewhat difficult filming session with Donnie yesterday evening. I followed that with a slow motion meltdown from my cancer anxiety.

Today is when the bullet hits the bone. My fear knows no bounds.

[personal|cancer] Staying busy

Keeping the stress monster at bay here. Had a full workday yesterday, including a lunchtime trip to the optometrist, and drop-in at the blood lab for some basic metabolic panels (ie, not connected to cancer). Interestingly, my eye guy started talking to me about life, fate and cancer in the middle of the exam. I figured I was about to get witnessed to. It happens. Except he was talking about atheism, it turned out. Actually, I’d thought he was a Mormon. I’ve never been witnessed to by an atheist before. We had a fine old time discussing it.

After work I spent some time with Jersey Girl in Portland, then had dinner with [info]mlerules. A bit later in the evening, I spent a little over an hour in front of the camera being interviewed by Donnie Reynolds for the documentary project. Then I watched a little anime with [info]the_child and went to bed early so I could get up and walk this morning.

So, yeah.

Today is rather slower. Work, lunch with [info]calendula_witch, a haircut this afternoon, and some more camera time with Donnie. After today, it gets a lot busier, right on through next week’s Big Festival of Oncology.

It is to gibber in the quiet places.

[photos] More faffing about on the Washington and Oregon coasts

In addition to the Aberdeen Star Wars Shop shoot, we did some other location work and tourism over the weekend. This included photography in Oysterville and Nahcotta, watching the Pacific sunset Saturday night, and visiting the wreck of the Peter Iredale on Sunday as a detour on our way home to Portland. We also got some hilarious bonus video of a very bad road in Warrenton, OR.

Some more photos…


[photos|travel] The Star Wars Shop in Aberdeen, WA

Yesterday, Donnie Reynolds, [info]the_child and I headed to Aberdeen, WA, to the Star Wars Shop there.

Donnie and [info]the_child were shooting footage for a short film documentary project on the store and its owner, Don Sucher. I was along as a lower-tier assistant and generally just to watch.

The place is amazing. Nutso amazing. There’s an estimated 70,000 pieces of Star Wars memorabilia in the store. Along with a bunch of other stuff, including some Kurt Cobain memorabilia, and other science fiction tv show and movie stuff. Even minor sidelines in Lord of the Rings and The Simpsons. It’s a toy collection that metastasized then miscegenated with a pawn shop.

[info]the_child worked second camera, did some interviews of store employees and customers, and shot a lot of stills. It was great fun to see her working, engaging with people, being thoughtful and smart and creative. Me, I wandered around and took pictures and mostly listened.

There are stories to tell here, but I’ll wait for Donnie and [info]the_child to tell them on film.


[links] Link salad heads for the Piedmont

Same Book, Different…Book (includes spoilers) — Editor Gabrielle Harbowy talks about her reactions to my novel Green, and compares those reactions to a number of other reviews.

Steampunk themed cruise to be held on Navigator of the Seas — Including yours truly. USA Today blogs about this as well.

In an old furniture store far, far away… — More from Waterloo Productions, this time involving [info]the_child.

How not to talk to someone about their feelings…[info]alumiere is both wise and angry. Me, I despise the cult of optimism, so, what she said.

Space smells like seared steak, hot metal, astronauts reportAstronauts returning from spacewalks frequently report a distinct odor clinging to their spacesuits and equipment. In space, no one can hear you dream?

NASA tests ‘inflatable heat shield’ which unfurls in space and helps space ships float gently down to a planet’s surface

Catholic priest victims: NCAA too light on Penn StateWhen money was misspent at SMU, play is suspended. But when boys are raped and crimes are concealed at PSU, play continues. This sends absolutely the wrong signal. Football. Just like Wall Street, the money’s too big for there ever to be true accountability. Ain’t that America?

Loading the Climate Dice — Paul Krugman is thoughtful on climate change.

Deniers, disgust, and defamationWhenever I post about the reality of climate change, I get the usual chorus of denialist outrage. This includes the odd ad hominem or two, like the sneering “What does an astronomer know about the climate?”, because apparently not having an advanced degree in science makes someone a better judge of the data.

Fox News Banned From Canada – Law Forbids Lying On Broadcast NewsHarper’s attempts to make lying legal on Canadian television are a stark admission that right-wing political ideology can only dominate national debate through dishonest propaganda. Got it in one. (Snurched from [info]jess_ka.)

What I Learned in Law School — An attorney’s perspective on the Second Amendment and the Aurora shootings.

Guns versus cars — Philip Brewer responds to some discussions on my blog.

Romney to Olympians: ‘You didn’t get here solely on your own’ — So when Obama says that to businesspeople, that’s socialism, but when Romney says the same thing to athletes, it’s, um, what? More of that justly famed conservative intellectual consistency.

GOP Rep. Stands Up For Huma Abedin & Freedom Of Religion At Town Hall — Props to him for getting it right. The First Amendment’s guarantee of freedom of religion really does protect everyone.

GOP’s Obama obsession will lose it the election — A lot of people, including me, hated President Bush for a lot of reasons. Most of them were reality-based, whether or not they were objectively worthy of vilification. Most of what the GOP hates Obama for isn’t even particularly connected to reality. It’s just weird. And these are the people who used to mock “Bush derangement syndrome”.

?otD: Carolina in the morning?

Writing time yesterday: 90 minutes (1,900 words to complete first draft of a requested short story, plus some revision time)
Body movement: n/a (airport walking to come)
Hours slept: 5.75 (solid)
Weight: 238.0
Currently reading: Last Argument of Kings by Joe Abercrombie

[links] Link salad, like the mouse police, never sleeps

Life Interrupting Art — Donnie Reynolds with some more commentary on the documentary filming process with me.

McMillian Sand Filtration Plant – decommissioned — Some lovely urban archaeology in the Washington, DC area. (Thanks to Dad.)

1970s fashion — Those were the days.

Mating with the wrong species: plastics make it possible — I’ve been on dates like that.

Varieties of Lewdness, 1795 — Um, wow? (Via a mailing list I’m on.)

3 waves from Siberia populated Americas

A striking experiment shows how you can run on quicksandExperiment hints that our models of non-Newtonian fluids are badly off-target.

Faster Than Light — Why physics is hard.

Beirutopia: Could Lebanon’s capital become a garden city? — (Via [info]threeoutside

Exxon CEO admits climate change is real but says we’ll be able to roll with it — But, but, liberal conspiracy! (And no, Eric, I’m not ignoring your last email.)

Flaccid ‘Fortnight for Freedom’ fizzles for fathersSlacktivist Fred Clark is delightfully snarky about the latest emissions from the morally bankrupt Catholic hierarchy.

Even in worst-case scenario, conservatives look beyond ‘Obamacare’ — In other words, no matter what, the GOP is still throwing the underinsured, the uninsured and the high risk under the bus. How terribly Calvinistic of them.

The cruel myth of voter fraudTo understand the cruel calculus of voter ID laws, voter purges and other election law mutations one political party has turned into an obsession (second only to their fever for passing laws designed to corner women into giving birth) you have to understand what these laws would actually prevent, if they worked as advertised.

The Role of Government — A critique of American views of government.

Obama the Socialist? Not Even Close — Confidential to GOP in America: You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means.

?otD: Is your tail balancing at half mast?

Writing time yesterday: 2.25 hours (1.25 hours on Going to Extremes outline, 1.0 hours on workshop crit)
Body movement: 60 minute suburban walk
Hours slept: 6.25 (fitful)
Weight: n/a
Currently reading: Before They Are Hanged by Joe Abercrombie